it's only me in my own world

i guess it's nt that simple to get over that someone. im still hurting aft looking thru your photos with her. surprsingly, yes i am. i dont even knw why i had the urge to see your photos. it's been a while and i had been trying my best to move on. yes, i thot i did. bt thn, the hurt was still felt aft looking at your photos. i guess i've nt moved on totally. ahhhhhhhhhhhh~ this is shit. i dont wana live having these memories in my head. memories that bring heartaches and whatnots. i just want those things to get of my head and let me be free to think of other things. it's alr enough that i have so much to think of nw and with this, urgh, rly stinks man. hw i wished that our brains had a delete button which i cn easily press and yes, stupid memories will be gone. if life was that easy. oh well, i still have to carry on with life. no matter what i will still try my best to move on. like what everyone would say, everyth hppns for a reason. sighhh~

so many things that are hppning and they are rly getting on my nerves. i guess it's gona break apart. if it's nt nw, sooner or later it shall hppn. im nt praying for it to hppn bt i cn no longer see any hope in it. it's breaking apart, it's falling apart. im in despair. i feel useless nt being able to do anyth. just to watch it hppn, it seems like im being a coward who is trying so hard to get my ass covered behind any problem-proof shield. im sooooooooo depressed. i wanaa go somewhere far far far away where no one cn ever disturb my peace. i rly need to get out of this busy city. i rly dnknw what's the end result would be. either good or bad, or in this case i think it would be worst. hahhh.. it's okay, it's alright. i'll just have to hide those tears, those frowns. smile no matter what and let nobody knws of the situation that im facing. one thing for sure, i alwys believe that Allah will be by my side. i pray that everyth would be okay. Amin.

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